Monday, 11 April 2016

Is This Your First?

Ugh. This question.

I cringe a little every time someone starts to ask about this pregnancy because it's only a matter of time before they ask 'Is this your first?'

I always want to say no. I always want to talk about Annalee and tell them about our daughter. At times I have, but that leads to more questions and those inevitably lead to me having to say that she is no longer with us which then leads to a lot of awkward 'I'm sorries,' and that all seems like a lot for the girl who's doing your nails to take in.

So now I say that this baby is my first and my heart breaks a little each time, but then I have a little private moment to myself and I think about Annalee, who will always be our first :)


  1. sigh, i feel you on this one my love. always so difficult to find that right balance of sharing, but those private moments of thoughtful reflection are key. so so much to think about and process ALL the time. xo

  2. xoxoxo. Doesn't make it any easier, but for every one of these tough moments there are hundreds of thoughts of love flyin' around out there for miss Annalee :)